Dear Jabbers,
I made the mistake of watching the news last night. There's a new virus that is carried by mosquitoes that can cause brain damage in newborns if the mother is bitten. Lucky for us, it's winter and there are no mosquitoes here. But it got me thinking, I have been worried about you since the day we found out that we were having you. And you've given us a few scares along the way.
About 11 weeks into her pregnancy, your Mom called me from work and she was freaking out. She was bleeding pretty bad and as I hung up the phone, I was pretty sure we had lost you. I don't think I've ever been that scared in my life. I ran into the ER and your Mom and I just sat there in the waiting room crying with each other while we waited for them to call her back. The rest of that visit was a blur. But the one thing that sticks out to me is when they did the ultrasound and we saw you for the first time on that screen. I held my breath while the doctor listened to your heartbeat. I had no idea what I was hearing, so I just sort of held my breath and hoped that the sound was normal. When the doctor said everything was good, I couldn't help but cry. While we were looking at that screen, we saw you move around and it was honestly the best feeling in the world.
So maybe that experience has made me more worried about you than I should be. I'm scared that something is going to hurt you, or make you sick, or whatever...and that there's nothing your Mom or I can do about it. Your Mom has done so much to make sure everything that she eats or drinks is safe for you. But even when she's careful, they'll put something on the news about some sort of recall on food because it carries a disease that could cause some terrible things to happen to you. It's insanely scary.
We're only about 4 weeks from your due date. So do me a favor and hurry up and come meet us. I'm probably never going to stop worrying about everything in the world that can hurt you, or make you sick, or whatever...but being able to see you will make me feel more at ease.
Love,
Dad
Everything will be fine Mike!
ReplyDeleteYou never stop being scared but that's just because you love them so much!
ReplyDeleteI love these letters because I get to know you better by reading them. That's one lucky Little Jabbers
ReplyDeleteFIrst of all, mike, these are beautiful and such a good idea. Second, you will worry about them everyday from now till forever. Youll worry about their health. Their safety, their happiness, everything. But all we can do as parents is put them first, love them deeply, and do the best we can. Youll make mistakes and you'll learn and they will be ok. We all fumble through. But, you have terrific support and role models and your going to be an amazing dad! N dont rush him, let him cook as long as he needs to. Just alil advixe from an old friend and fellow worrying parent! ❤
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